I am bloody pissed off right now.

Yesterday Yvonne came over to our house to sleepover, so we were all chatting in Gerald's room. So we were talking about running, because Gerald was asking Yvonne to go and run with him the next morning. So I said, I will never run with Gerald again because he is always insulting me when I ran with him the last time (it was more like a torrent of insults all the way from the house to Russell Square). Then he said, he never insults anyone ELSE.

Like, ok....

So i asked, why does he insults me then? Why just me? Do i deserve to be insulted?

Then he said, YES, quite enthusiastically.

Wow. What a shit load of respect from one of my closest 'friends'. I really dont know how many enemies I have when I have 'friends' like that who believes I deserve to be insulted. It's time like this when you suddenly realise what people really feel about you. I have to say I am very disappointed, in myself that I have such a 'friend' and I actually consider this kind of people a good 'friend', and in him, that he is such a pathetic low-down despicable person.

I really don't know what I've done to deserve this. All the times I go out of my way to help my 'friends', and I get the branded as the person who 'deserves to be insulted'.

For this, I deserve to be insulted - for letting people insult me, for letting people look at me in this light.

You're pathetic. I wish you good luck in finding true friends because you don't treat anyone else as true friends, and may noone else discover what you really think about them.