I think everybody has a deep dark secret within them that we withhold from everyone else, because we think that if the cat is out, noone would like us anymore, and everybody wants to be liked.

Or perhaps there was one little lie that you once made, that grew out of proportions and you could no longer control it and had to live your whole life holding on to that lie, fearing that it would one day leak out, like a time-bomb waiting to go off and life, as you know it, is gone.

It's sad when you know that there are so many things that you wish everyone could know about you, but am not sure if they should, or could.

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3 days to internship.

Am scared, horrified, worried, shocked, terrified, excited and a whole mixture of random feelings that i cannot possibly contain nor understand. I am going to burst!

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I got my NI number! Now i can happily be unemployed in the UK and get benefits HOHOHO. I think. Am not sure what the number is for actually, but applied for it since everyone on internship is applying for it. Hahaha.

I am a crowd follower. Damnit.

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Noone's at home!

Gerald is (still) at work, Aivy is out looking at Mummies in the Museum. I am home studying about yield curves and macaulay durations.

Can't wait for work to start so that the highlight of the day will not be just waiting for Gerald to come back and tell me exciting stories about work and the new things that he's learnt. I want to go to work too! Faster faster!