Am missing a piece of me.
Where did it go?
Did you steal it from me?
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I'm in one of my emo days. Emo. :(
I'm missing a lot of people, yet not really missing them. It's really hard to explain; like part of you is missing, but you can't really quite piece together who you really miss, or what is it that you are really missing.
I remembered when i first came to uk, i was really, really happy. I could laugh non-stop, and i would end up in tears from the laughter. I would giggle at the silliest little joke, and make even more myself. I could talk nonsense and not worry about the after-effects. I could prance on the street singing a silly little song. My friend went through my multiply page and commented that i was dancing like a mad woman in Spain in my first year and i realised, i haven't really done that in a long time. I haven't laughed, danced, pranced like a mad woman for a long long time.
I miss stability, ignorance, unrestrained laughter. I miss my empty-headedness.
I know I must grow up now.
Goodbye.
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I need a piece of me back.
Do you have that piece?
It was all a big mistake.
Please give it back to me.
Please.
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And with that, i died.
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I like Penguin chocolates. :) On the back of every Penguin chocolate, there is a little joke.
'Why do seagulls fly over the sea?'
Answer: Cuz if they flew over bays, they would be baygulls (bagels). :)
Not funny meh? I thought it was damn funny so i told both of my housemates, and they were both staring at me with that open-mouthed look on their face.
*pouts & stomps feet* very funny marhhhhhhh....
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Found out today that the bus to my work place takes an hour!!
Proactiveness did not worked out today because i was late for the class. :( It took way over my projected time limit to get from my house to my work place, on my trial trip to the office today, that i missed the class. :( Shit. Thank goodness the class was for free, so i didn't really lose anything except the chance to learn and be really proactive for once.
On the bright side, found a lot of nice place to eat around my work place; which technically is also a bad thing. Heard the CURRIES there are damn nice. Shit.
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Gerald is putting stress on me.
o.O
Everyday when he comes home from work, he will say 'JOAN! GOT STUDY OR NOT!' Think my father also never give me so much stress!
Speaking of which, i wish he did. Sometimes i think that my Dad gives us so little pressure, that there really isn't a push for us to excel. I was quite disappointed with my ABBBB results and i told my dad, and he actually thought i did quite well, rather than reprimand me for my laziness over the year and whatsoever. Then when i was whining to him that i needed a job, he would tell me that i don't need to look for a job and take my time. When i was telling him a year ago that i wanted to do an internship this year in the UK, he said to go back home or go travelling and have fun and not to worry about getting a job. Last year when i took a summer job so that i would have something to write in my CV, he kept asking me to quit because of how unhappy i was at my summer job.
Sometimes i wish that he could understand that doting us to that extent of spoiling us is not doing us any good at all. Like, take a look at my useless eldest sister. If she fails her exams, my dad will just blame it on his own stupid genes and ask her to work harder, though not very forcefully. He just never learn that sometimes u need to let us learn to fly by ourselves, rather than put all these protection around us, fearing that we can't stand the fall.
The last time i remembered my Dad being angry with me was when i was around 5 or so. Can you imagine that? It's either i am an angel, which i know everyone knows that i am not haha, or that he just cant bear to punish us.
I really wish he could give us some useful advice, and if that fails, give us a good scolding, like what somebody does to me all day long - which is why i don't really mind being bullied or nagged by Gerald because i know at the end of the day, it's for my own good. Wish it was my parents doing that instead though.
Where did it go?
Did you steal it from me?
--------------------------------
I'm in one of my emo days. Emo. :(
I'm missing a lot of people, yet not really missing them. It's really hard to explain; like part of you is missing, but you can't really quite piece together who you really miss, or what is it that you are really missing.
I remembered when i first came to uk, i was really, really happy. I could laugh non-stop, and i would end up in tears from the laughter. I would giggle at the silliest little joke, and make even more myself. I could talk nonsense and not worry about the after-effects. I could prance on the street singing a silly little song. My friend went through my multiply page and commented that i was dancing like a mad woman in Spain in my first year and i realised, i haven't really done that in a long time. I haven't laughed, danced, pranced like a mad woman for a long long time.
I miss stability, ignorance, unrestrained laughter. I miss my empty-headedness.
I know I must grow up now.
Goodbye.
--------------------------------
I need a piece of me back.
Do you have that piece?
It was all a big mistake.
Please give it back to me.
Please.
--------------------------------
And with that, i died.
--------------------------------
I like Penguin chocolates. :) On the back of every Penguin chocolate, there is a little joke.
'Why do seagulls fly over the sea?'
Answer: Cuz if they flew over bays, they would be baygulls (bagels). :)
Not funny meh? I thought it was damn funny so i told both of my housemates, and they were both staring at me with that open-mouthed look on their face.
*pouts & stomps feet* very funny marhhhhhhh....
-------------------------------
Found out today that the bus to my work place takes an hour!!
Proactiveness did not worked out today because i was late for the class. :( It took way over my projected time limit to get from my house to my work place, on my trial trip to the office today, that i missed the class. :( Shit. Thank goodness the class was for free, so i didn't really lose anything except the chance to learn and be really proactive for once.
On the bright side, found a lot of nice place to eat around my work place; which technically is also a bad thing. Heard the CURRIES there are damn nice. Shit.
-------------------------------
Gerald is putting stress on me.
o.O
Everyday when he comes home from work, he will say 'JOAN! GOT STUDY OR NOT!' Think my father also never give me so much stress!
Speaking of which, i wish he did. Sometimes i think that my Dad gives us so little pressure, that there really isn't a push for us to excel. I was quite disappointed with my ABBBB results and i told my dad, and he actually thought i did quite well, rather than reprimand me for my laziness over the year and whatsoever. Then when i was whining to him that i needed a job, he would tell me that i don't need to look for a job and take my time. When i was telling him a year ago that i wanted to do an internship this year in the UK, he said to go back home or go travelling and have fun and not to worry about getting a job. Last year when i took a summer job so that i would have something to write in my CV, he kept asking me to quit because of how unhappy i was at my summer job.
Sometimes i wish that he could understand that doting us to that extent of spoiling us is not doing us any good at all. Like, take a look at my useless eldest sister. If she fails her exams, my dad will just blame it on his own stupid genes and ask her to work harder, though not very forcefully. He just never learn that sometimes u need to let us learn to fly by ourselves, rather than put all these protection around us, fearing that we can't stand the fall.
The last time i remembered my Dad being angry with me was when i was around 5 or so. Can you imagine that? It's either i am an angel, which i know everyone knows that i am not haha, or that he just cant bear to punish us.
I really wish he could give us some useful advice, and if that fails, give us a good scolding, like what somebody does to me all day long - which is why i don't really mind being bullied or nagged by Gerald because i know at the end of the day, it's for my own good. Wish it was my parents doing that instead though.
posted by me at 2:28 PM
1 Comments:
But the thing is that.. you don't actually like people to nag at you or tell you off or even tell you you're wrong... you'll rebutt, then become Joan the Little Princess all over again.. ahahhahaha =D
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